Saturday, May 30, 2009

Happy Weekend

I love the weekend. Doesn't everyone though? A chance to relax and unwind. Although a lot of the time it ends up being when I get everything done. Cleaning, laundry, errands, etc. Oh well. Today, as embarrassed as I am to admit this, I haven't even gotten out of my pajamas. And can I just tell you how great it feels? I'm so used to running from one place to another and never having enough hours in the day that just one day without it is like this huge weight off my shoulders. Tomorrow, I go back to trying to get a bunch of things done, but for now, I'm just going to enjoy this to do list free day.

I went to the baseball game last night. We ended up having to get me a scalped ticket. $10 over the regular price, but hey, I'd rather pay that than the $40 for the only seats they had left. Luckily whoever bought the tickets for the seats next to my friends didn't show up, so we were all able to sit next to each other with no issues. Our team won, 7-2. There were even fireworks after the show. It was a good time.

No craft/scrapbooking related news or posts recently. Hopefully this will change pretty soon. I'm still working on the massive clean up/reorganization of my craft area, and with any luck this will make it much easier for me to do projects there with the little free time I usually have.

Speaking of little free time, since school is usually the reason for that, I did pretty well in my classes. Compared to the past few semesters anyway. I had been letting my grades slowly slip more and more each semester. Hopefully I'm on the climb back up now. My summer class starts on Tuesday. The break has been nice, luckily this is only a month long class so I'll be able to get another break for a little under two months after this class is over.

Well I'm off to watch a little TV and do...well nothing really. Surf some blogs, SCS, and so on. Maybe I'll finally make it through these 10 scrapbooking magazines I've had sitting here for the past two weeks.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Missing him.

Okay, first things first. I just have to put this out there to make me feel better. Maybe it's just me, but I just don't understand why people say "Happy Memorial Day". It's not like it's a happy day. It's to remember the fallen soldiers and marines. It's not like "Happy birthday!" or "Happy Halloween" or something. It's a somewhat sad day. You're remembering people that died fighting for freedom. Yes, you could be celebrating their life...but it just irks me that there are a lot of people out there who don't remember the reason for today. And just think of it as a day off of work, a day to go to a cookout, an extension of the weekend and another night to drink. I guess being the granddaughter of someone in the navy, a grand-niece of someone in the army and then coast guard, the grand-niece of someone else in the army, and girlfriend of someone in the marines...it just affects me a little more. So please, if you read this today, just remember the real reason behind Memorial Day.

But moving on. I've been missing the boy a lot. I mean, in general I've been missing him, but yesterday was just a big reminder of him being gone. I went to my best friend's graduation party yesterday and there were a bunch of couples there. Not that they were all over each other or anything, but you could tell. I ended up drinking more than I should have (not to the point that I was completely messed up) and I really missed him taking care of me. I had friends there obviously, but none of them were taking care of me, which I completely understand, it's not like that's their job or anything, but it made me miss him so much, because he would have been taking care of me. Little things like that just tug at my heart and make me practically miserable for the rest of the day. But we're one more day closer now to him coming home. One more day closer to the happiest day ever. One more day closer to being in his arms again. That's one thing I miss probably more than anything. You know, that amazing feeling where you just feel so unbelievably comfortable, warm, and safe. You feel like everything you need is right there..you could stay like that forever and be completely and 100% content. Okay, now I've got my eyes welling up, it's time to go. I have to go get ready anyway.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Relaxation

It was so nice to be able to not go anywhere yesterday, and not have to do anything. I haven't been able to just sit here and relax in forever. I did manage to get some work done. I cleaned out the freezer and two shelves of the pantry in preparation for the grocery run I'm about to do. No more eating out, no more eating junk. I also rearranged my room a bit and cleaned a lot of it. I still have to do some organizing, but the majority, I'd say about 75%, is done.

Once I get the eating under control I'll join a gym.

Ive gotten two of my final grades back so far. I got an A. I was so happy. I know I have either a B or an A in one of my other classes. In math I got a C... I missed a B by less than two points. That's going to make me crazy! I wish these teachers would hurry up and put these grades up. I'm assuming I got a B or C in my english class. Next semester I'm going to work by butt off and get all As and Bs.

Alright, I gotta get ready and head to the grocery store. I'm already cutting it close by being back by 1:15 and still having time to get ready and get to my best friend's grad party!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

7 month countdown begins

He's gone. He left on Thursday. This deployment already seems harder than the first. A few times a day, especially at night when we would usually call each other, I just want to pick up the phone and text or call him. I go so far as to get my phone in my hand, take off the key lock, and then realize I can't. He called last night. It was really nice to hear his voice even though it was only for a few minutes and even though he had only been gone for a day.

I can't wait to start on his care packages. I already know of a few that I'm going to do. I want to try and send one at least once a month. First I have to figure out how long it takes to get something from here to him on average. I don't want to send some type of food that spoils in two weeks if it's going to take a month to get to him!

At least from here on out, instead of counting the days until he leaves, I get to count the days until he's home again. Which obviously is a much better date to count to.

I have lots of plans to keep myself busy while he's gone. Joining a gym, taking a summer course, taking a full course load in the fall, continuing to work full time the entire time he's gone, completely clean/rearrange my room, quit the terrible habit of smoking, save money, oh the list could go on and on.

It's one of those really disgusting days out. I'd much rather it be pouring down then this sticky wet feeling. It's like you're sweating all day, but you're not. You just have this nasty wet, humid feeling all day long. I feel like I need to shower for the second time today and it's only 1:30 in the afternoon.

Well, I'm off to go and get ready for a graduation party I have to go to at 4.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

where I've been.

Whew! Its been so long since I posted. I've been so busy! This whole going to school full time and working full time kicks my butt. I'm almost done thank god. Well...for a week or so anyway. But at least then I'll only have a month of one class where I meet twice a week and that's all. It's a little bit of a break anyway. Then I'm free for almost two months. Free from school that is. Still have to make that money! Haha. No, but I love what I do. I love each and every one of my babies.

My great uncle did pass away shortly after my last post. While it was expected, it still hurt. A lot. He will be and is greatly missed.

The boy and I are still together, still going strong. He was just up here visiting for a little bit under two weeks. Unfortunately it was for pre-deployment leave. Off to Afghanistan he goes. Actually, right now I should be doing a million things for homework that I need to get done before I go down to North Carolina to see him before he leaves...but instead I'm procrastinating by writing this blog. I'll be down there from Friday until the day he leaves, which I'm not going to put on here for OPSEC reasons. But lets just say, it's entirely too close.

I figured out I'll be done school (with my AA) anyway after the spring semester (so only a year to go) Then I'll have another two years till I'll have my Bachelors. Ack. I'm so ready for school to be over with.

Well, enough procrastinating for now. Off to go do tons of homework!